WHAT IS IT LIKE TO BE ON HORMONES? HERE IS MY HONEST OPINION..

WHAT IS IT LIKE TO BE ON HORMONES? HERE IS MY HONEST OPINION...
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On hormones for 1 year and 3 months now
In the beginning, you are very excited. Everyone finally knows you are trans and you are ready to start this journey. You see crazy transformation pictures on the internet. Those ''transformation'' pictures with a picture of a 100 year old overweight guy with a beard on the left, and a photo model girl on the right. You are excited for the same.
Sexually, You might feel like me and you want to become more feminin as a sissy slave on top of that. All is so exciting.
Once you started, you fairly soon realize that this isn't going to be a fast solution. After a month on Hormones without any results, you might even start to doubt if this thing is working. After a couple months you realize that you aren't getting erections and your sex drive is different, and after 3 months your nipples start hurting. Your skin feels slightyl softer and you are excited again.
But soon you realize that this is actually harder then you expect.
You wear a feminin t-shirt for the first time outside.
Are they looking at you because you look weird?
Are they even looking at me?
You start to try on a dress, you still feel ugly in a dress, you put it away for a while, then on a good day you try again and even go outside for a little while. Once again you're scared if they are looking at you.
Someone calls you ''sir'' in public. I never got offended by that, just hurt. It crushed my confidence. It ment I'm still abit masculine.
You take very slow steps towards yourself and honestly, sometimes it can be a very long struggle and battle.
Got the courage to go out in a dress now?
You start to pay attention to how you walk, how you talk, you name it.
It's like you're becomming a new person and you need to find and build confidence all over again and it can be very exausting.
I was lucky I had Charlotte on my side. It's very good to have trans people around you who felt what you feel and support you.
You become more emotional, you cry a lot, you become calmer,.. its like your personality changes a little bit. You feel like you are still you! But just abit different.

And then... a year passes

And on one day you look in the mirror and you see a girl
And you look behind you but there is no girl
its you
You get a surge of happyness and confidence
And this happens more frequently
You lift your t-shirt up, and you see a more feminin shape and some boobies
Just yesterday, I looked in the mirror and I didn't recognize myself anymore
It is very very wild
I look so different now and I still have a long way to go
I don't regret it at all. I'm so so happy, i feel so much better.

It's a very rough journey with lots of ups and downs, but its so worth it.

Be carefull tho
DONT do hormones out of sexual reasons.
You WILL regret that 10000000000%

Mwah
Joyce